Happy Where My Life Is Now...

I was sitting here thinking about where my life is now. And I can proudly say that I am happy with where I am. I am happy with who I have become. I constantly see people around from high school and I am SO happy I am not like some of them. Still mean, rude, and immature. I'm happy to know that I am better than those who still think people actually care about who they were or (thought) they were in high school.

And as much as I want kids and want to be pregnant now, I'm happy that it wasn't meant to be earlier in my life. I am thankful that I got the chance to be young and stupid. I got to enjoy my early 20's, and I wouldn't change that because I am in much better place in my life now.

I am married, more stable, and now ready to start a family. I am not going to stress about getting pregnant. I'm not going to worry about it, I'm not going to go crazy buying all sorts of crazy test and spending tons of money to get there. Bob and I wanted kids and we stopped using birth control in 2006...but we were never really faithful about trying...you know. But now that our lives have settled down and we are more stable and more ready in our lives for a baby we are now making more of an effort to try. So we'll see where that goes. When it's meant to be it'll be. I'm not going to stress myself out about it, because if I do it wont happen.

And now that the school year is quickly coming to an end...means that my stress level will come down as well and I wont be so tired. I can soon relax and whatnot, which will help.

There are so many people pregnant and having babies, that's all I hear about lately...which sucks most times because it's not happening to me right now, but I know it will. Like I said...when it's meant to be it'll be.

I wouldn't change one thing about my life and how I came to be the person I am today. Because every person I encountered, every tear that I cried got me to where I am now. With every person, tear, smile that came to be ... I learned a lesson about life. I am not going to regret having people I don't talk to in my life because I am a firm believer that everyone is brought into your life for a reason. And everything you have to go through gave you a lesson in life as well. So I am living regret free, there isn't one thing I would take back....because honestly it was exactly what I wanted at the time. And to this day I'm not about to let anyone knock me down!! I'm okay with the past...I'm happy with who I am today. I am happy with my life. I haven't been happier actually!! :)

I know soon that Bob and I will finally have the money to buy a house and do things with our lives that we wouldn't have been able to do otherwise. I can't wait to move out of fall river! But for now...it's home. It's our home. It's our first home together and that's something I'll always remember! :)

Mine and Bob's relationship seems to get better each and every day. It just keep's getting stronger and stronger and I'm proud of that. I'm proud to have such a rock solid relationship at such a young age. Bob is my rock each day of my life. I love that we are both adventurous and love to travel and see new things. I love that we have so many hobbies and interests in common. I love that Bob does things like today got up early and made me breakfast so I wouldn't be hungry at work since I usually go hungry in the morning before work because I don't have the time to eat. and tonight he went to the market to grab something to go with dinner, and came home with a long stem red rose for me just because...and told me he loved me. It's things like that, that makes my heart melt. I am just so happy, happier than I have ever been! :)