I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends and Family...

It's been a week and one day since we lost our angel, why does it seem as if time is crawling by? I have been getting myself out of the house and doing things with my daughter and friends in hopes of distracting myself and for the most part I do but there is always the part of me that can't seem to not think of what happened. A part of me feels so broken and looking for answers. My heart is always aching, my mind is always wondering "what if."

But thank goodness for my friends, they have truly been amazing. They have been taking turns checking on me, been taking me out to dinner or out on day trips, been leaving me messages and been a wonderful support system and I don't know what I would do without all of them. You truly find out who your true friends are when something awful happens in your life and when you feel like you can't go on. And because of them I have been able to find strength that I didn't know that I had. They have allowed me to cry, to talk, to get angry and to feel down right awful when I needed to and they have understood and that means the most to me. It's not every day you find friends who understand but also care 110%

The other support system that I have is my husband and my family, I don't know what I would do without all of them. My husband has seen me through my darkest times, he was there to let me cry and to tell me everything was going to be okay, he was there in the days that followed and understood that I just needed some time to myself. He was there during the nights that I fell apart and told me it was okay to fall apart and okay to not put on a brave face all the time. He has been so supportive and I feel so lucky to have such an amazing husband.

My mom and my family have also been a big support system and have truly showed me the power of family when you are going through a rough time in life. They all have let me know that I am not alone in this and that if I am hurting so are all of them. They have been there to listen to me, to encourage me and to make sure that I was healthy after my miscarriage. Each and every one of them have opened their heart up to me and have allowed me to grieve and have been there and I am so thankful for that.

Speaking of friends my friend Erika is taking me and my daughter out for the day to get me out of the house so I have to be going, talk again later.

-Amy